Uncertainty

Uncertainty. It's hard to live with not knowing.  I have another appointment on Friday to check to see if my precancerous cells have progressed.  I won't know the results for awhile.  I know I will be fine, but I'm scared of the next steps. I have so many things floating right now that I don't have the answers to fix it or make it all go away.  It could be worse. I will have to keep going back for awhile. So I will have to learn to live with this uncertainty. I'm not sure how?  

Working on the Postcard for the Swimsuits

I've been doing homework and designing the postcard for the swimsuit business today.  I would love to be outside enjoying the last bit of warm weather. It's amazing how fast it has turned cold.  I had a nice weekend, I took myself to dinner, gallery stroll, and an outdoor concert.  The Copper Onion has these ricotta dumplings that I can't resist.  I like to go and sit at the bar, ordering the dumplings and a drink.  That's about all that I can afford at this upscale restaurant on a tight budget.  The concert was chilly, but luckily I had remembered to bring a blanket and wear a sweater.  The band was melodic and soothing, their voices echoing off the surrounding buildings and floating up into the crisp air. Sometimes I realize how alone I am and how comforting it feels. It's just me.  I'm starting to think that I don't want to get married again or have someone in my life.  I've been so disappointed.  Tired of feeling any sense of rejection, when I'm accepting. I can see myself getting older and spending my time doing only the things that I love. Exploring creativity.

The City of London

Sometimes life gives you a break.  A very welcomed break!  I'm going to leave my worries behind!  I found out today my work is sending me to London.  I've been wanting to get out of town and have been started to feel that I couldn't escape this Utah bubble, when "the boss" called me into his office and announced that he needed someone in London with a creative eye.  I'm being sent over to redecorate some of the rental properties.  So I get to combine my two loves, style and shopping!  I'm looking forward to seeing the London Tower and the Royal Palace....oh, the list goes on!  Things in life are looking up!  

Beautiful Song, Thought I Would Share