It's been awhile since I've said this....or much less even thought this....but for the first time I have found someone that I can see myself staying with for a long time. I have so many mixed feelings, I just want to be around him, but I'm haunted by my past. Will he cheat? Will he have another life that I don't know about? Can I trust him? My feelings of past betrayal cloud the present.
Bringing myself back to the moment--laughing, cooking together, taking long walks, having him reach up and kiss me....telling me that I'm amazing.....keeps me focused on what we have..... right now.
He has all that I have been looking for: Well-spoken, social, sarcastic, playful, straight-forward, honest, affectionate and genuine. We are both about ideas and travel.....dreamers and idealists.
It feels good to feel again. To find hope...and possibly.....love?
Don't give up on yourself, don't give up on him. Don't give up on love and forever after.
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